It's all making sense now...

Thing more about my project lately i realized how similar it is to an unfinished project i did trying to find my home, my own space whether it was a fantasy or reality. A home i had lost because of the constant changes happening around me and this city of all reasons to be.

My previous project discussed how my home was a place that i had lost a place that in millions of years if people where to evolve they would look different and the way how we would leave our homes and let nature takes its course would alter the environment of it so much. Since we take so much care of this city and everything in it, i managed to find something that describes this home that wont exist anymore in a few more minutes, days, months, years who knows... last time i saw that spot it was sealed up no room for anyone to go in or out; perhaps because i have messed it up too much inside. That place had so much energy and beauty within its walls, and its pieces falling apart. It is probably how i imagined to dubai to look like if we were to vanish away completely. So before i drift off into this new topic and go way off my topic; my project discussed how this country is my home even if i leave for a couple of days and come back to realize that i don't recognize any of it at all because of a new buildings that were torn down or built up, or a new road, maybe even a "bridge" who can ever recall what anything here looks like after it has been altered. Who can recall how Dubai Marina was one big pile of sand before all these towers came rushing thru, who can remember how the beach looked like before the islands where put on there, who can remember how the horizon looks like without a single building in sight or try to imagine (one rule is you have to have lived in this country for 22 years and not travelled much and/or for a long time).

In this project i was experimenting with light painting, trying to fuse a new form of human beings who will visit what we left over; how these humans would evolve to look like and how our homes would end up looking like. this is what i reached by the end of my project.







This project was never finished ... by the end of it, it appeared to amateur specially the light painting aspect of it that seemed to fall off. I see what I'm doing now a continuation of this project that never finished, in a very slim way they are related its still to do with memory but a different kind of memory that is not strict to only my childhood. It's almost as if a part of me dies everyday when i forget something, or knowing that i don't know who i was when i was young. Maybe this feeling of death is the reason my work is starting to become so dark, in terms of the shadows i placed over and a few experiments I'm following through right now; where instead of being on top of the water i am under and suffocating under my own reflection. There is a lot more to this project than what i thought, memory has always been an issue to me the fact that i forget things i want to remember that irritate me a lot when i try to capture them but they appear different and how they can end up looking like is way beyond realistic. Maybe this time i worked in reverse, i probably should have explored my childhood before trying to imagine how this place would look like in a couple of years; maybe I'm too tired by the end of all of this and need to sleep, or maybe I'm just talking shit. I know this is probably a bit too late to mention but i know its important to add as part of the process, something that i never finished.

Lately i have been working on the dark side of this topic, creating a surreal space where it is just me and my memory in possible my mind or space, and pushing the experimentation further. I've come across a few difficulties trying to set up the shots i have in my mind due to lack of knowledge and common sense ... but it should all be posted on here on tuesday.

Good Night!!!